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Sustained

14 Wednesday Jan 2026

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As I continue to process by writing, I’m finding the breadcrumbs I left on this blog years ago.  Just about 18 months ago, I was in a terrible place.  My mental health was at an all-time low while people I love dearly when the telling of horrific things came to me.  I don’t like to use the word “triggered”, as it seems to be overused these days, but that is the word my therapist used.  While I was working with my therapist, I was diagnosed with PTSD.  I really had a hard time with that diagnosis, as my father, a Vietnam War Veteran had PTSD. 

I’ve never been to war.

But now I know. 

I grew up with someone who went war, and didn’t get his PTSD diagnosis until the 80s.  I also grew up with long-term abuse and neglect.

So after a little while I pressed for EMDR.  The therapy was good, but not enough.  I was tired of living the way that I was.  I wanted something more.

And EMDR changed my life.  Maybe saved my life, because I just couldn’t go on the way that I was.

Life is wonderfully different.  There are still had unresolved things going on.  And I am healing, growing and learning who I am beyond unresolved trauma.

And something I can see so clearly that I mentioned in this previous blog post, I have been sustained. Adonai has always been with me and has tended me through the years.

And this is true for you. No matter what you have been through, what you have endured, He has been with you. He has good for you. And maybe it is time for you to reach out and receive help that can bring you to someplace wonderfully different.

Strategy and Post Traumatic Growth

12 Thursday Jun 2025

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Last week I experienced a very low week. It felt as though depression was flooding in, but as I did some reflection, I found not depression, but loneliness and restlessness. It did not make sense.

Why the loneliness? Why the restlessness?

Next, I am a part of a business coaching cohort, called Strategy, hosted by Leslie Burris. And this group, and the coaching by Leslie, is so very good. I’m being able to put in place many of the ideas and suggestions presented for my quilting business. But I’m also feeling like outside of the quilting business I just don’t know if I have anything to offer. Everyone in the cohort seems so very far ahead of me.

This was really troubling me and I brought it up in therapy. I am so thankful that while I have completed the EMDR treatment, I’m still meeting with the therapist a couple times a month. After I shared what I was feeling and experiencing the therapist told me that I am now experiencing Post Traumatic Growth. Goodness, there is even a “trauma” name for what comes next, insert nervous laugh.

So here I am, celebrating in a strange way that I felt another emotion, loneliness. That I was able to do self-reflection and identify the feelings and communicate about them with my therapist. As someone who didn’t really feel for a very long time, this is good progress. And it is an indicator of the opportunity to press in and grow further out of trauma. So here I go, forward.

I’m sharing my journey here, partly as a way of journaling because I tend to not journal about what I am really experiencing. And also, because, most of us are like the rest of us. And what I am experiencing after trauma, maybe someone else is too.