Last week I experienced a very low week. It felt as though depression was flooding in, but as I did some reflection, I found not depression, but loneliness and restlessness. It did not make sense.

Why the loneliness? Why the restlessness?

Next, I am a part of a business coaching cohort, called Strategy, hosted by Leslie Burris. And this group, and the coaching by Leslie, is so very good. I’m being able to put in place many of the ideas and suggestions presented for my quilting business. But I’m also feeling like outside of the quilting business I just don’t know if I have anything to offer. Everyone in the cohort seems so very far ahead of me.

This was really troubling me and I brought it up in therapy. I am so thankful that while I have completed the EMDR treatment, I’m still meeting with the therapist a couple times a month. After I shared what I was feeling and experiencing the therapist told me that I am now experiencing Post Traumatic Growth. Goodness, there is even a “trauma” name for what comes next, insert nervous laugh.

So here I am, celebrating in a strange way that I felt another emotion, loneliness. That I was able to do self-reflection and identify the feelings and communicate about them with my therapist. As someone who didn’t really feel for a very long time, this is good progress. And it is an indicator of the opportunity to press in and grow further out of trauma. So here I go, forward.

I’m sharing my journey here, partly as a way of journaling because I tend to not journal about what I am really experiencing. And also, because, most of us are like the rest of us. And what I am experiencing after trauma, maybe someone else is too.